Delays and mental blocks on day four

So day two and three have passed. I have no idea where they went to, but they went along.
Day one held alot of promise for me. I was able to read up on Thalia Took's website about many Goddesses and found a new tarot deck to work with. The lore of it speaks to me somewhat.

Other than watching some movies and reading articles, I haven't been thinking about my year and day journey or journal. Right now a slurry of thoughts and ideas of what to do are running amok.

With the Thalia Took website, I hope to incorporate the Goddesses and Gods mentioned on the site as reference to what I am doing. Which is to relate how each Goddess is related to what I am doing and to make a theme of learning and understanding with each one.

Mentally I feel like I am biting too much of an apple and about to choke. May have to take it slow. A flame has to be fed slowly or it will consume too much and wither. Till then, more reading and some studying. Things are looking forward. Day four has just started and now I am feeling drained again.

Today's goals are:

Organize a space you can work at and on your B.O.S and magickal journal.

Maintain a flame on your altar.

Read more about witchcraft basics, start with the witches bible and some other books.
[Get through chapter one of the books your going to read.]

Get back into the habit of reading you tarot decks and using them more.

Complete the Goddess Tarot workbook this year, take each card one day at a time.
[If you would like to do more than one, then do so. Yet don't rush to far ahead.]

Get plenty of sleep. You need energy, too.


 

Day one of three hundred and sixty-six

An today was the start. After leaving my altar sitting and setup with pink candles. I went onto my patio and made convo with the universe. Opened up my inner self and spoke my intent for the year.

Mostly about learning, knowing self and coming into the understand that I will be learning from many traditions and backgrounds. Also I need to make sure that I honor those traditions that I will be writing from and working with.

With this in mind I have to remember to that my goal is to better myself as a witch and come to terms with the limits of my powers { funny I had typed posers in that spot. Going to figure out where that came from.} and how and what I can do with my witch powers. Also spoke of unbinding myself from a place that is no longer there.  Am I going to fail at this, maybe. Though I think I will do just fine.

Will add a pic of my altar soon. As for day two, don't know until I get there.

Running into a mess

In less than six days I will be starting on my year and day. I am worried that I won't be able to commit or even finish this. My fear is that I will get through it half way and not finish it after all this time. That it will just die and I will brush it aside like all failed things.

Also, six days and I don't even have a space ready for all this to happen. So I know that I will need to commit to not only this but remain consistent with this.

Though in my mind I am ready, in my heart it feels like I been waiting for this moment. So excited and I honestly want to keep that excitement for when I continue on with the rest of the year.

An I worship here and there before my altar

This is my altar from two different times this year. The above shot is from late summer. The second one is from Samhain, this past October.

With my summer alter I was just wanting to set it up and give it some purpose. Before it was very messy and I didn't do much with it. Though after taking the photo, I did some worshiping and ritual working towards understanding. With some working on honoring the Goddess. At the time I wasn't connected with part of the God.

With the Samhain alter my focus was on the ending of the year, honoring the dead, and starting with the new. Also the candles this time have meaning Orange-Horus, Silver-Isis and Green-Hathor. There is a wonderful balance in these three deities.

With both altars I kept seashells as my water elements. Personally I love the ocean. It calls to me and calms me. Still keeping my plants as well. May have to find more tumbled stones to put on it and personal items to create as well. I've removed the crescent moons and the stars they will be part of a mobile that I am making. Though it may take on another shape later.

I am excited about keeping my altar useable and to where it can serve a purpose to channel my energy.

I do know that it will vary from time to time. May take out the traditional parts of it and make it more me like. Right now I have all four elements represented and with a part for the Goddess and God. Though I am making small changes.

On December eighth, I will light a candle for my intent of starting my year and day. Another one for the Goddess. So I will post that one up next. Here to hope and pictures, of course. 

No more....

No more:

Hiding from life and magick. It is a part of you and it is a blessing to be alive. Face them with courage and know you will fight on.

Putting spells working or charm making on the back burner, due to fear of the unknown within you.

Allowing the past to stop you from reaching your higher self.

No more putting yourself down, your inner beauty and out beauty are wonderfully made and I think the divine would not like you putting it down.

More:


Noticing where you need improvement.

Seeing the good and bad in what you do magickly, and work to make it better.

Love freely and give more of which is needed.

Practice, practice and perfect trust of self, life and magick.

Smile more.

Hug more.

Do more.


This is a reminded to do these things and remember to keep your head up.

Jumping in the ocean

Today is a new day. It is another Tuesday morning that I am glad to see. After only writing down my thoughts in books and posting my thoughts of magic on Facebook. I decided to create my own space.

Where I could leave my thoughts, goals, and dreams here. Of course with my workings of where I am going with magick.

Now that I have taken this step, I am feeling overwhelmed with how to start this. Gotta to love new beginnings and all that they bring, though I hope to complete some things while I have this blog.

Intent-

To complete my year and a day in the Wicca path and also to strengthen myself as a witch. So I have to ask why am I doing this?

What are my goals? How will I benefit from training as witch and studying Wicca? What is my purpose?

My goals are to improve and shape my personal power. I know that I have witch like abilities, but have not taken the time to study or improve them. So now I am taking the time to do this, before completely loosing them. Also, I wish to strengthen myself with the divine, this is a lifelong goal and it will take a certain amount of work to do so.

I will benefit from training as a witch and Wiccan by knowing the lore, how to work one's power and gifts to help self and others. With Wicca it will be a merging of my self with beliefs that are foreign to me. It has taken me many years to get to this point, and I would like to use this time to fully free myself from a cycle of doubt and self-hate.

As to my purpose, it is really self empowerment and mastery of me. An knowing I build the road of life and magick that I wish to walk upon.


As to the year and a day. For over fifteen years I have put off the formal year and day of study and learning about magic and Wicca, along with systems of Witchcraft. Why? Some of it was not studying and not being allowed to study it. Also not being free to practice full without items and books being taken from me. Though after I went off to college it was more of the fear that I would be mocked for being myself or that I would make a fool of myself. Those are all painful memories, but I will have to look on them with care and see the good and the bad within. Of what can I learn from them and use to complete my year and day.

As to when I will start my year and a day, it will be December seventh of two thousand and thirteen. Why then? I would like to complete it and get started with finishing college. This also means challenging myself to what I know and what I don't know. It will be the same thing for college and it will be fun and hard work.

Note to self: Do your best, I know that you can.