Bread

Today was Lam-mas and then day seemed cool yet bright. Still humid, though as I watched the crystal like sunshine come thru my bedroom. I remembered that today was the beginning of the harvest. That was the only thought that crossed my mind. That now was the time that fall was approaching. Today was nice, I said a thank you to the universe. Then I began to wonder what it was that I was harvesting?

Still not sure of the answer to that one. Though I still want to offer thank you for the season that comes. It means that the earth will shift a little. The days ahead will be cooler. It is interesting to see the changes in nature.

Now as the night is giving away to dawn. I am wondering of what to offer come Mabon? Though as I think about it. I have parts of myself that have grown and parts that I have lost as well. Perhaps those are what I should offer.

So the wheel turns

The wheel has turned again and now I find myself wondering about Lugh's Day. The day of the harvest. What will I offer up or what is even there for me to reap. An with the wheel so close to Mabon. I am wondering of what did I sow? What is seeds have grown now?

So far I have no real answer. Though with in mind of what Mabon brings, there is the other part of what is lost or what is laid bare. Though I will wait till October to get that underway.

Long time

So now that I've been back on track with magical work, I found myself not having a magikal clue about what it was that I wanted to do with it. I've found myself frustrated at not wanting to further myself as a woman and witch.

I've been neglecting to do the leg work for understanding how to become a better witch.

Like casting magic without taking the time to center myself and make sure that I give out the right kind of energy,

Plus it was more along the lines of conjure. My goal was to work on releasing the negativity from myself. Though this is a multi-step work. Along with the fact that I didn't say what it the core or root to the problem was. So now that the full moon is here.

I now have some research to do. However I was able to find out some information on Oba. Want to know where some the things that come natural to me come from.

There is also the books I need to finish working on reading.

Well ending the rant. Stay light and dark.

An the wheel moves

Tuned in and turning out some pages for my tarot journal. Found that I have housecleaning to do on a spiritual level. The wheel of the year is moving to Fall and into Winter. In a few weeks it will be Samhain/Halloween. There is something thrilling about the time of year when the darkness comes and settles in for a while. Going to see how this season of darkness turns out. Definitely keeping a light lit. Not just for me to see with my eyes, but with my heart as well.

Did a reading for myself, found that I was channeling some Venus/Aphrodite/Erzulie vibes. Had to take the time to see who this is both positive and negative. Its a loving energy, though it has a undercurrent that is also destructive. Was working with my Goddess deck, found out that the cards for Venus also shares something with Oya and Freyja. Oya is strength and Freyja is power.

So I have been questioning those themes and how they have been working in my life. Going to have find a good deck that allows for me to channel more of the God. When I used the same deck I got the King of Swords and Isis as the magician, though I did take some time to see which God I was focusing on. Realized it was Set. I know the story about Isis, Osiris and Set. Though I am a little confused as to how the King of wands fit into it. I though the King of wands was a force for positive growth and clearing away of energies. Will take my time to see what it is.

I have also come to understanding that my altar is what I make it to be. So I will be keeping it to a bare things that I can see reflecting what it is that I am doing, magically speaking. As to my B.O.S. it will be a journal format. I don't think I have personally created an meaningful spells or enchantments. More like insights to who and what I am.

Going to start including a picture

*all ownership of picture goes to Thaila Took*

Remembering the details and not birthing things to soon

It is August 25th and Beltane is long passed. I didn't end up doing what I planned. Though the part about birthing myself has manged to come to a head.

A seed I planted in my mind has found a way to come to life.

I will still write out the wish I have for myself, though it will be a well thought out wish that I will use for Samhain/Halloween. Right now the seed is slowly growing into something and if I rush things.  It will die before having a chance to fully grown and bloom.

I will remind myself about my previous plans for Beltane for the next one. Also need to remind myself to pay attention to the wheel of the year more.

Tonight I worked on opening and closing a circle with allowing those who wished to enter to do so.

I thanked the elements and those who entered. With also acknowledging the Goddess and God.

The two that visited were Set and Aphrodite. I am not sure what this means, but that I will take time to learn.

Forgot to mention Lam mas was interesting, but forgot to offer something for the beginning of the harvest season. Though I did do something for it, just can't think of it right now.

Also offered prayed to Ezrullie for helping in the recovery of a family member. Was struck with the idea to spray perfume on the walls as I was saying a prayer and opening and closing the circle. An also thanking Athena for her wisdom with things as well.

Magical burn out and birthing

It happens from time to time. When doing magic and making changes you can find yourself burnt out.

Thus I have stepped away from it for now.

Well that is not completely true. I found out that when working with Kali. She takes her due for lending you her energies. She also leaves you feeling drained. Think of it like spiritual meth, you get all the energy one could ask for. Though at the end of it, your left depleted.

With that note I found the time to focus my thoughts and how I was feeling. Really good to feel this way.

With this in mind. My Beltane celebrations are going to focus also on what ideas and plans will be birthed.

Many years ago, someone once told me about birthing yourself. At the time I though they were crazy.

Now I realize, I needed to bring about the person inside to outer world. So along with getting back on my book of shadows. I will be bringing myself fully into the world. Part of me is worried about being harmed. Though I will be fine.

Now back to the plans for Beltane. A yellow candle for the sun, black for the sky. Why this combination. A meeting of the God and Goddess meeting in the day celebration, then the night where the two become one.

With a pink one to be my wish of what is to be born.

Phew... We'll on to next time.

Days of the future past or How day five is going to be something

Well day five was going to be along the lines of all the things I was reading about and what mattered to me magically speaking. Didn't happen. Instead I was enjoy the holidays and stuff. Here's to life.