An the wheel moves

Tuned in and turning out some pages for my tarot journal. Found that I have housecleaning to do on a spiritual level. The wheel of the year is moving to Fall and into Winter. In a few weeks it will be Samhain/Halloween. There is something thrilling about the time of year when the darkness comes and settles in for a while. Going to see how this season of darkness turns out. Definitely keeping a light lit. Not just for me to see with my eyes, but with my heart as well.

Did a reading for myself, found that I was channeling some Venus/Aphrodite/Erzulie vibes. Had to take the time to see who this is both positive and negative. Its a loving energy, though it has a undercurrent that is also destructive. Was working with my Goddess deck, found out that the cards for Venus also shares something with Oya and Freyja. Oya is strength and Freyja is power.

So I have been questioning those themes and how they have been working in my life. Going to have find a good deck that allows for me to channel more of the God. When I used the same deck I got the King of Swords and Isis as the magician, though I did take some time to see which God I was focusing on. Realized it was Set. I know the story about Isis, Osiris and Set. Though I am a little confused as to how the King of wands fit into it. I though the King of wands was a force for positive growth and clearing away of energies. Will take my time to see what it is.

I have also come to understanding that my altar is what I make it to be. So I will be keeping it to a bare things that I can see reflecting what it is that I am doing, magically speaking. As to my B.O.S. it will be a journal format. I don't think I have personally created an meaningful spells or enchantments. More like insights to who and what I am.

Going to start including a picture

*all ownership of picture goes to Thaila Took*

Remembering the details and not birthing things to soon

It is August 25th and Beltane is long passed. I didn't end up doing what I planned. Though the part about birthing myself has manged to come to a head.

A seed I planted in my mind has found a way to come to life.

I will still write out the wish I have for myself, though it will be a well thought out wish that I will use for Samhain/Halloween. Right now the seed is slowly growing into something and if I rush things.  It will die before having a chance to fully grown and bloom.

I will remind myself about my previous plans for Beltane for the next one. Also need to remind myself to pay attention to the wheel of the year more.

Tonight I worked on opening and closing a circle with allowing those who wished to enter to do so.

I thanked the elements and those who entered. With also acknowledging the Goddess and God.

The two that visited were Set and Aphrodite. I am not sure what this means, but that I will take time to learn.

Forgot to mention Lam mas was interesting, but forgot to offer something for the beginning of the harvest season. Though I did do something for it, just can't think of it right now.

Also offered prayed to Ezrullie for helping in the recovery of a family member. Was struck with the idea to spray perfume on the walls as I was saying a prayer and opening and closing the circle. An also thanking Athena for her wisdom with things as well.

Magical burn out and birthing

It happens from time to time. When doing magic and making changes you can find yourself burnt out.

Thus I have stepped away from it for now.

Well that is not completely true. I found out that when working with Kali. She takes her due for lending you her energies. She also leaves you feeling drained. Think of it like spiritual meth, you get all the energy one could ask for. Though at the end of it, your left depleted.

With that note I found the time to focus my thoughts and how I was feeling. Really good to feel this way.

With this in mind. My Beltane celebrations are going to focus also on what ideas and plans will be birthed.

Many years ago, someone once told me about birthing yourself. At the time I though they were crazy.

Now I realize, I needed to bring about the person inside to outer world. So along with getting back on my book of shadows. I will be bringing myself fully into the world. Part of me is worried about being harmed. Though I will be fine.

Now back to the plans for Beltane. A yellow candle for the sun, black for the sky. Why this combination. A meeting of the God and Goddess meeting in the day celebration, then the night where the two become one.

With a pink one to be my wish of what is to be born.

Phew... We'll on to next time.

Days of the future past or How day five is going to be something

Well day five was going to be along the lines of all the things I was reading about and what mattered to me magically speaking. Didn't happen. Instead I was enjoy the holidays and stuff. Here's to life.

Imbolic sights and sounds

It has been many weeks since I've posted anything. Phew alot has happened magically speaking.
Not long after Yule I began this idea of mixing my regular journal entries and magical ones together.

With it being a great time in my life so far, I started noticing the coming of spring and all the things that means. That the energies that make up spring are coming as well. That the cycle of endings are coming to an end. With it the birth of many things.

On the new moon this past week, I opened myself up to Kali. At first I was worried about what harm was going to befall me magically. Then I noticed that the more I stop worrying about it, the more the changes and gentle nudging from her would help. Lately it has been deeper understanding of who I am and what it is mentally I am doing. An also I have noticed more moments where I am wondering about which parts of me are being put forth.  Am I putting all of me forth? What am I hiding?

I've taken a moment away from reading up on my magical studies and tarot reading. Though I have been looking ahead to the Rx's happening through out the year. Many of them will affect and effect me, though I am looking forward to them.

Have also worked on seeing how I relate to certain Goddesses and Gods how they reflect in my and how I reflect them. Need to work on remembering to open and close a magical space. I tend to work in an open space without the need to use it. Well here's to spring.